One of those days...

Its one of those days.. Days where you feel like God is doing nothing.. Feels like he has forgotten me and left me behind. My heart says God has plans for you.. My head says God has given up on you.
I know this is not true. But so often the lies can whisper to us over and over agin.

Sometimes I wonder if I am normal, maybe I am odd for feeling this way.. But everyday I meet 100's of people through my Twitter and Facebook page who struggle the same as me. Yes I am normal painfully normal but the devil loves to make us feel isolated and alone. He loves to make us feel like the odd one out, every else is happy and joyful why aren't you I hear playing over and over in my head.

The lies are endless, you must be a bad christian for feeling this way, you just need to surrender this part of your life.. grow up.. God is not happy with you..

God understands our struggles.. He understands that I can't see the bigger picture. He is proud that I want to do whats right, that I want to give this part of my life for him. He knows that growth is not always a quick thing.. He always believes in me and loves me and knows one day I am going to make it.

Never Alone

Somethings we can only walk through alone.. There has been times when no one could understand what I was going through, I couldn't explain the pain I was going through.. It was a path I had to walk alone...But i was never truly alone because God was with me every step of the way.. Anything I wanted to do such as go on a mission trip, and road trip or something like that I had to go alone.. I didn't have a best friend who I could do everything with.. But I am so glad of that now. Its been me and God.. he has taught me so much.. he is the only one that I share all my memories with, because he has been with me through everything! He has taught me to rely on him.. He has always looked after me and  I know with all my heart he will keep looking after me!

Who You really are!!

This is a video I made for you all to show you who you really are!!
Hope you like it!!

This is me

This is not me, I am the quiet introverted girl, the one that used called the silent one in collage! 

The one that was shy, but God has given me a voice, a place where i feel comfortable to speak,

This is not the old me, but it is the new me, the one that has become alive in Christ!! 

The one he truly has made me to be!! So yes this is me!! 

Suicide Awareness Day

Today is Suicide Awareness Day, 

today i remember my beautiful loving friend who believe her life wasn't worth living,

 and took her life a few months ago... 

To everyone who believes the world would be better off without them, its not true! 

You are special important and loved.. God has a plan for your life. Suicide is not the answer!!! 

Book.

I have not been on here for a while because I have been busy with my new project. I am writing a book. A book for young woman about purity, love and my struggles that I have faced. I hope that it may reach out to girls that are struggling. 

God has been asking me to be honest with the writing of this book. 

Its so hard for me, I have never been one that likes to talk about the hard stuff i would much rather put a happy face on it and cover it up.  Just shows you that Gods plans aren't mine. 

If I can make someones life just a little easier though this book, I will do it.

Hope you all are having a lovely day.

Praying for everyone who visits my blog. 

God bless.

The power of pain...

To make you or brake you....

There are times when the pain doesn't leave... You wonder God why me? 

You say are you even there? Do you hear my silent plea.. 

My dear friend I know your pain... I have had so many times I wouldn't want to relive again.

The pain, the misery we try to block it out. But guess what God has a plan for this pain.

Will you let this pain brake you, tear you apart, destroy you? Or will you let this pain make you. 

Make you a overcomer, make you a hero, make you the change that you want to see in the world?

Make you into something beautiful, into something rare that only comes through the refining fire of sorrow and pain...