One of those days...

Its one of those days.. Days where you feel like God is doing nothing.. Feels like he has forgotten me and left me behind. My heart says God has plans for you.. My head says God has given up on you.
I know this is not true. But so often the lies can whisper to us over and over agin.

Sometimes I wonder if I am normal, maybe I am odd for feeling this way.. But everyday I meet 100's of people through my Twitter and Facebook page who struggle the same as me. Yes I am normal painfully normal but the devil loves to make us feel isolated and alone. He loves to make us feel like the odd one out, every else is happy and joyful why aren't you I hear playing over and over in my head.

The lies are endless, you must be a bad christian for feeling this way, you just need to surrender this part of your life.. grow up.. God is not happy with you..

God understands our struggles.. He understands that I can't see the bigger picture. He is proud that I want to do whats right, that I want to give this part of my life for him. He knows that growth is not always a quick thing.. He always believes in me and loves me and knows one day I am going to make it.

Never Alone

Somethings we can only walk through alone.. There has been times when no one could understand what I was going through, I couldn't explain the pain I was going through.. It was a path I had to walk alone...But i was never truly alone because God was with me every step of the way.. Anything I wanted to do such as go on a mission trip, and road trip or something like that I had to go alone.. I didn't have a best friend who I could do everything with.. But I am so glad of that now. Its been me and God.. he has taught me so much.. he is the only one that I share all my memories with, because he has been with me through everything! He has taught me to rely on him.. He has always looked after me and  I know with all my heart he will keep looking after me!